"Already Disturbed.Proceed With Caution"

On sermon-writing days, my husband and I close the doors of the office, and post signs that say "Sermon in Progress".  The implication is that we are focused on our sermon-- and for those who aren't sure what this entails, we try to include that aspect of listening for the Holy Spirit's guidance.  Obviously, if there is an emergency or someone is in the midst of a crisis, that always takes precedence over writing the sermon, but otherwise, we would like to be able to write without interruption.

One week, after numerous interruptions for non-emergency situations, I posted the following Maxine picture on the door: (It at least made me laugh!) 

Two and a half weeks after my surgery, I've been wondering if I need to plaster this on a t-shirt and wear it!  At first, I blamed my lack of a "filter" (on my comments) on the prescription painkillers. But I am still grouchier and more cantankerous than normal even after days of being pill-free.  I've even told one of the church secretaries that if I say anything that offends her to not take it personally.  This woman, who can normally smile and be charming, even if annoyed, struggles right now to keep her mouth shut!

Last night I was telling this to a friend who had the surgery in October.  She reminded me that everything is pretty raw right now-- including my emotions.  She's right.  Everything has changed, and while I may feel like I am doing "great", I have those moments when I simply need a good cry, whether I know why or not.

It explains why I was emotionally and physically exhausted last Sunday after church. And why I am being selective in my "public appearances" right now.  They wear me out on more than one level.

You've been warned, but I hope that won't keep you away.  I really DO appreciate the hugs and the concern and the care.  My friend tells me it WILL get better, and I know it will.